As I unpacked my bags and such earlier this week from my trip out West I decided that I needed to tell you something, and that something is this: I got divorced in March of this year. I don’t know why it struck me that I needed to tell you, but it just felt right. I’ve kept it to myself and off of the blog for any number of reasons, but as I thought about things more and more I realized that it was time to share. The last two weeks have been really freeing, blog-wise; it’s been great to have the friends I’ve been lucky enough to make through this blogging thing take over my site and constantly amaze me (and, hopefully, you) with what they were willing to put together and share. But I also realized about a week ago that I missed the blog and the little community that’s sprouted up around/through it, missed the daily opportunity to post something I whole-heartedly believe in for those who stopped by this corner of the internet and, most importantly, missed the daily routine and release of posting/sharing. See, this blog has been the one constant in my life through the last year-plus of hard times and heartache, through those months and months when I was devastated and, eventually, the ones when the dark clouds started to part and I started to pick myself up and build a new life. It’s been a struggle- divorce is everything people say it is (sad, confusing, isolating, depressing, embarrassing, draining, etc.), even the ‘amicable’ ones- but this blog has been one of the best ways for me to cope with it, to stay above-water, have a purpose and make connections with the people that have, in the end, helped get me through it all.
It’s all been here on the blog- every day of it, from start to finish, but you didn’t know (though I had a friend figure it out before I actually told them, just based on the songs) (also: sorry about that winter mix last year- that was brutal). But now you know. And now I can maybe make it a little more personal around here again- things won’t be going full-bore emo or anything, but I’ll try to start to talk about real reasons for connections to songs instead of just saying ‘Hey, this is real good,’ which has sort of become my standard out (to be clear: I do think all those songs that I have essentially posted only ‘Hey, this is real good’ with are, in fact, real good, BUT there’s probably more to it than that, so I’ll start to make an effort to let on a little more). And, finally, I can now let you know how I really feel about the new Josh Ritter album, the one that came along at exactly the right moment and got me through the real tough times. See, I did write about it, just not with my name attached for all to see, because I wasn’t ready. Now I am, and you can read the words I wrote about an album that’s meant the world to me right here.
So, that’s what’s been happening around here. Thanks for sticking it out with me- it means more than you know.